Thursday, March 28, 2013
I was driving to work the other morning rushed and late but thinking. I was thinking of the saying, "What would you do if you weren't afraid of failing." And the answer came to me instantly. I knew exactly what I would want to do. It scared me how clear it was, and yet what a big jump and change it would mean for my family.
Now that said, though I apologize in its ambiguity (not all things can be shared in the world of cyberspace), I have pondered this saying a lot more over the last week. Because yes, I know what I would do if I wouldn't fail but does that really mean you should do it? Fear does keep us alive, and failure though not life threatening can have different endings.
For example, I also made the statement this week, "If I was younger and had normal pregnancies, I would have more children." Yes, I said this (even though I am totally sleep deprived, my house is a mess and I honestly feel that I can't handle my two children). But lets look at this, I fear that I would fail as a mother but more so I would fail to and have another horrible complicated pregnancy that our family can not afford at all. So in this case, taking the jump, forgetting fear much like I did with the last pregnancy well, I would end up in the same boat (or in my case sitting on the same couch or bed for four months).
I know I am rambling, and since you only know about half of what I am talking about these are confusing ramblings at best. All the same, "What would you do if you weren't afraid to fail?" and then, "Would you actually do it?".
Posted by Beth at 9:45 PM