Friday, May 25, 2012
I had a rough week, with an absolutely horrible friday. One of those weeks, that I feel I had a kick me sign on my back at work and by the end of the week just felt like a pretty big failure at all that I am trying to do. So I had to look at my picture of the week and realized that one of best times this week and lately is when we keep it simple and easy.
Posted by Beth at 10:36 PM
Thursday, May 10, 2012
I was so excited to get back at it. I thought and dreamed about it for months while I sat on my couch during bedrest. I just couldn't wait to get back out on the trails and back into my normal body and self. In my defense, I only took about four weeks off with the first pregnancy and was running the whole time she was in the NICU.
I am no longer patient. I am trying to be realistic. The reality is very bitter sweet. I am thrilled that I am back out there, and actually healthy enough to start trying again. Just being able to try is a victory and I am happy every-time I do try to run.
The other side of the coin: this past year has really, really, really sucked to my body. Bed rest turned me into a pile of goo. I have no muscle tone, and lots of extra skin. Every damn joint hurts now as I try to run, and the extra 15 lbs is not helping in the process. I can't believe how much it hurts to do what I once considered easy. I don't even really enjoy it while I am out there because it is so hard and painful. I now understand why people don't like to work out. I also now know why people just give up and never do it.
Trying to fit in a run with two kids, one who is nursing also seems close to an impossible mission as well. Though I hope, pray and plead that this too will eventually get easier. I also remember that even though I was running after the last pregnancy, it was hard to run well without solid sleep. And my work schedule then allowed me more time to run. I traded that schedule for more time at home with the girls.
I really hope it gets easier sometime. I know, I know, be patient.
Posted by Beth at 10:34 PM
Friday, May 4, 2012
Above you will see how I have eaten the majority of my meals and how I handle taking care of a toddler and an infant with no other help, the ergo. I actually have to wash it about once a week because I use the 'sun' shield to protect her head from my food falling on her. This baby carrier is not just for going for walks, oh no this is how we have been surviving. Anyone that hasn't used an ergo should try one, they are great for all ages and much more comfortable than some other carriers.
Of course I am missing a bit of my personal time with my little shadow attached to me. I just keep reminding myself that it is a short period of time and before you know it you are begging for cuddles because they are too busy running around the house. Also I know that this is my last baby so of course, I have to keep her close and enjoy every moment of her baby time.
Don't you just want to eat those cheeks? I do over and over and over again!
Posted by Beth at 10:23 PM
I do feel so blessed still for the lessons I learned and continue to learn from our NICU experience.
Posted by Beth at 10:04 PM