I have been having this silly image and saying running through my head. The image is not the one above, but a circa 1980 something poster with a kitten hanging from a branch, insert caption "Don't give up!". Completely stupid, really but yet it keeps running through my head.
I have been very blessed to have the same person watching K since we came home from the hospital. Then we moved on and T was watched as well. Our caretaker is having a baby and is due in January. I have to find new childcare. I have been looking. I have been asking. Nothing is turning up.
I don't have a ton of free time, and it is feeling like mission impossible. But, I can't give up! Hang on to that branch, we will turn something up. Even worse, I have to act around K that none of this bothers me. I know it is going to be a big transition for her, and I need to be brave and act like it is going to be great. In honesty I just want to go hide in bed. But, even that wouldn't help because I can't sleep lately because I am up worrying about not having childcare.
Change is hard. In fact at times it just sucks. I really want a period of time where we all just coast for awhile. Insert, long heavy sigh...